Tuesday's Time To

The inspiration from "Tuesday's Time To" is this passage from one of my very favourite chapters in all the whole Bible ...

"To every thing there is a season, and a time to every purpose under the heavens".
(Ecclesiastes, Chapter 3, Verse 1).

I've taken some of the themes from this chapter, and used them as a framework for contemplation.

A time to plant ...
Well, at this time of year here in England, it definitely ISN'T a time to plant anything outside! In fact as I write, it is bitterly cold and we have the first snow of the winter forecast. But it is always a time to plant desires in hearts. I have just finished the 30-Day Husband Encouragement Challenge, and tomorrow I shall commence a new challenge. I hope that this coming month will be a time for planting a desire for humility, gratitude and contenment, and that this will be an inspiration to those around me, who will benefit from my changed heart!

A time to heal ...
I hope so much that all my loved ones who have been sick recently, are healing well. Sometimes a kind word, is a healing balm just as much as a medication can be. I try to heal with kind words wherever I can!

A time to laugh ...
Papa Bear is always making me laugh! Today he said to me when we woke up, "I am asleep, Mama Bear. My eyes are open, but I am asleep"! I knew what he meant!

A time to embrace ..
I am embracing change, every day, but particularly so this year, as I hope to embrace a change in my heart to help me grow more as God's daughter and as my husband's help meet.

A time to keep ...
I am keeping on keeping on! My life is very busy with lots of commitments. Sometimes it is hard to keep a joyful heart. That's when I need to sing my favourite praise songs! It does help, and so does offering up my burdens to my Saviour. I also keep close to me, the words of comfort that I find in my Bible. Today's reading in Matthew, Chapter 21, Verse 22 - "And all things, whatsoever ye shall ask in prayer, believing, ye shall receive". What a wonderful promise to keep close to your heart!

A time to sew ...
I am so grateful to my own mother, Grandmama Bear, for (among many other practical homekeeping skills) teaching me how to sew. I was so surprised (and so was my teacher) when I went to school aged 11 and found that no one else in my class, knew how to thread a sewing machine. I have been making my own clothes for decades, although it is very definitely NOT cheaper than buying them ready made, but recently I have not made anything. I hope to change that soon, and will start by designing some of my own dress patterns (not as difficult as it sounds).

A time to speak ...
The 30-Day Husband Encouragement Challenge, has taught me that as well as there being times when it is good to speak, there are many times when it is just as good to remain silent! I have resolved to try not to chatter and gossip so much. That is definitely not a character trait I want to cultivate. I need to learn to hold my tongue and to "shun profane and vain babblings: for they will increase unto more ungodliness" (II Timothy, Chapter 2, Verses 16 - 17), because "even so the tongue is a little member, and boasteth great things. Behold, how great a matter a little fire kindleth! And the tongue is a fire, a world of iniquity: so is the tongue among our members, that it defileth the whole body, and setteth on fire the course of nature; and it is set on fire of hell". (James, Chapter 3, Verses 5 - 6).

A time to love ...
Oh there is ALWAYS a time to love! And so many reasons! Only yesterday, when Papa Bear was looking over the post I had written about the 30-Day Husband Encouragement Challenge (he did smile when he saw the part about the 3 Valentine cards!), he turned and said to me, "Mama Bear, you don't need to worry about being a better wife! Just keep cooking the chicken like you did yesterday, and I'll always think you are perfect!" Ohhhh Papa Bear!
I love you sooooo much!
(The roast chicken we had for our evening meal on Sunday was delicious mind you, but I think that was more thanks to the chicken, which was a particularly large and succulent one, rather than any special cooking skills of mine! But I'm VERY glad that Papa Bear enjoyed it so much!).

A time of peace ...
The true peace of knowing we are always enfolded in God's love, is the greatest peace of all.

Love, Mama Bear xxxxx

Feedback From The 30-Day Husband Encouragement Challenge

Well the 30-day Husband Encouragement Challenge that I began on New Year's Day, has come to an end today. I started this challenge thinking that I would find it quite difficult, because although it is very easy to SAY you love someone, taking a step back and truthfully thinking about it, isn't always so simple. Deconstructing your relationship and analysing and assessing it from a spiritual viewpoint I thought would be a real challenge. I was afraid I'd find lots of negative areas that needed working on, and that I would struggle to fulfill the day's challenges because I had so much work to do in each area.
However I was pleasantly surprised! Although each day led me to really think deeply about my role as a wife, and how this impacts on our relationship, and how the Bible's teaching, which is central to that, can guide me to rethink how I see this role, oftentimes I was very heartened to discover that God's work in our lives is very evident, and that we are already doing pretty well as a couple! That was very satisfying, but I also found the 30-day Challenge a useful resouce for considering just how I can continue to apply God's teaching to ensure that I never cease to grow in my role as a wife, and to nurture Papa Bear in his role as husband and head of our home. Over the weeks I hope to share what I learned with you in more depth. But for now, as a taster, reflecting on what I have learned, I would like to share my first thoughts. I found a common theme in the key words that jumped out at me regularly from each day's challenge ... see if you can find it too!
Just as they came to me here is the list of key words ...
Passionate
Positive
Proud
Planning
Playing
Prudent
Peaceful
Perspective
Pals
Persistence
Privacy
Productivity
Poetry
What's more, when I compared what I had written down, with the key words in the chapter I have just finished reading, on being a Godly wife in the book by Elizabeth George, entitled "A Woman's High Calling", I was surprised to find the same theme there ...
Praying
Praising
Pampering
Oh my goodness, that book is a HUGE inspiration to me. Coupled with the 30-Day Challenge, it has been a wonderful resource, especially the 2 chapters on loving your husband. Those 2 chapters alone are worth buying this book for, I think. Contemplating all those words typed in black and white above, I can see now that it is possible to use Elizabeth George's three themes as headings for categories, which could then be applied to the work a Godly wife has to do, to serve and support her husband lovingly, so I divided them up into the three separate categories ...

PRAYING
Prudent
Peaceful
Planning
Perspective
Persistence

PRAISING
Positive
Proud
Productivity

PAMPERING
Passionate
Playing
Pals
Privacy
Poetry

I shall write these down on cards to put in my Daily Treasures box (more about that another time) to pray over and apply scripture and thoughts to each category, which I can return to whenever I need to encourage myself or find inspiration. I plan also to share my contemplations with you as I work through the list! That last key word, "poetry", I added because on today's challenge, the final day of the 30 days, Nancy Leigh DeMoss suggests that you may like to put all the positive things that you have discovered over the month about your husband into a poem, to will bless and encourage him now that you have completed the challenge. I thought it would be nice to draw all those key words together, and use them as a starting point for my poem, which I can then put into one of Papa Bear's Valentine cards!
One of them?
Yes! When I went to the supermarket alone on Saturday I was so pleased to find many beautiful cards from which to choose. It was my golden opportunity to buy him a card for St. Valentine's Day, because more often than not, we shop together so whenever there is a special occasion coming up, we have to be very clever about buying each other a card without the other one seeing it. At Christmas we really surprised each other - by buying the same card! On Saturday though I was spoilt for choice by all the lovely cards on offer. The only problem was deciding which one Papa Bear would like best. And I couldn't decide, so in the end, I bought him not just one card, but THREE! I will put something different in each one, and plan to have some other surprises besides. But in one of those cards, will be a special poem. I think I shall get started on writing that, right away!
I enjoyed doing the 30-Day Husband Encouragement Challenge so much, that I have picked another challenge from the Revive Our Hearts website to do for February. This time I shall be attempting the Choosing Gratitude challenge. Why not click the link on my sidebar, and join me? It is a wonderful way to "grow in grace" and see God's plan for you in action.
Love, Mama Bear xxxxx

Music Is The Food Of Love

Some lovely praise music to enjoy on our Sabbath Day ...


We did not have either of these hymns at Church today but I thought I would share them with you anyways as they are both favourites of ours. "Sing Hosannah" is the song we both have on our lips, whenever we need to cheer ourselves up. And Papa Bear gave me a sweet watch with the Precious Moments characters on it for my birthday last September and it has a button on it, which plays "This Little Light Of Mine"! Whenever I hear that tune it brightens my heart! It surprises everyone to hear my watch playing beautiful music!
I was very busy yesterday with my Saturday chores. But I still had time to indulge in my favourite pass time - cooking!
This is what we had for our tea (evening meal) yesterday ...

Yum! It was delicious!
We had it a bit earlier than we normally do, owing to the football being on TV. It meant a bit of clever timing, but I managed to serve it up just as the kick off whistle sounded. And it was sooo yummy. For the first course we had this ...

This is chilli bean tortilla bake. It is so easy to do, and not expensive either. We have this often. I do find that using beans you have soaked and cooked yourself, rather than canned, provides a richer flavour and texture. Canned beans are fine, but do have a go at trying home prepared ones, if you have time.
If you would like to make this lovely dish, this is what you do ...

INGREDIENTS
2 tablespoons cooking oil (we always use Crisp'n'Dry)
2 cloves of garlic, chopped finely
1 onion, chopped
1 red pepper, chopped
about 5 cups of mixed beans, either canned (about 2 14 oz cans) or prepared beforehand (About 1 1/2 cups dried beans).
If you choose the prepared beforehand option, you will need to start this meal the night before. Soak the pulses overnight, then drain, place in a saucepan, cover with fresh water and boil fiercely for 15 minutes, then turn down the heat, cover and simmer for about 1 hour and 15 minutes. When they are done, drain them and leave until you are ready to cook the rest of the dish). As regards what sort of beans to use, I tend to buy a bag of mixed which has about 10 different varieties, but I often add extra butterbeans, as they seem to lend a lovely richness to the dish.
1 14 oz can chopped tomatoes
1 teaspoon chilli powder
1/2 teaspoon salt
1 stock cube (chicken or vegetable)
About 1 cup boiling water
1 large bag tortilla chips, any flavour
2 cups grated cheddar or Monterey Jack cheese

1. Start by putting the 2 tablespoons of oil in a large saucepan and heating on a fairly high heat (I start with the highest temperature on the stovetop and then turn down a couple of notches).
2. Add to this the chopped onions and garlic, and sprinkle with the 1/2 teaspoon salt (this will prevent them from browning too much).
3. Gently sautee for about 7 minutes, until really soft, stirring now and then.
4. Then add the chopped red pepper, and sautee again until soft (about 4 minutes).
5. Add to this the can of chopped tomatoes, and turn the heat back up, just briefly, until the tomatoes are simmering quite rapidly.
6. Then add the chilli powder. Turn the heat back down to medium, and add the beans. Give everything a good stir.
7. Depending on whether you used canned beans or home prepared ones, you may need to add a little hot water to loosen up the mixture. You are aiming for pretty much the consistency of canned baked beans in tomato sauce, but definitely no thinner than this. I added about 1/2 cup boiling water today.
8. Add the stock cube, crumbled. Because of the stock, you shouldn't need to add any extra salt to this recipe.
9. Now cover the saucepan with a lid, and turn the heat right down to the lowest but one setting (on our stove, this is "2"). Leave to simmer very gently, stirring occasionally, for about 20 minutes.
10. Now get out a large flat casserole dish (as pictured above, this is a lovely red earthenware dish which Papa Bear very sweetly gave me for Christmas and which I adore) and pour the bean mixture in.
11. Cover the mixture with the tortilla chips, spreading evenly so as much of the mixture is covered as possible. Depending on the size of your dish you may find you have slightly too many or too few, but don't worry, it will be fine anyways.
12. Then sprinkle over the top of the tortilla chips all the grated cheese.
13. Place on the lowest shelf in a moderate oven, and bake for about 30 minutes or until the cheese is golden and brown in places. Then serve! We have it just as it comes with no additions, but it would be very good with rice, or some salad leaves (with some coriander, ideally).
After that you might have thought we were pretty full, but no, we had room for this delicious dessert ...

Blueberry Buckle!
I was able to make this only because dear Grandmama Bear had a huge box of the most beautiful big ripe blueberries that needed eating up, and which she did not fancy, having been so sick recently. So she gave them to us! Oh my goodness was I pleased! I decided to make this scrumptious dish which we all adore, but which I don't make often as the quantity of blueberries required (2 whole cups) makes it rather expensive. Thank you Grandmama Bear! What a wonderful treat! (She was so delighted too, when I told her today what I had baked. She was so glad those beautiful blueberries did not go to waste).
The recipe for this dessert comes from a cookbook of mine called the "Lancaster County Cookbook" by Louise Stoltfus and Jan Mast. It is full of wonderful "plain folk" recipes with a simple, homespun theme. And among them is this treasure!

INGREDIENTS
For the buckle ...
3/4 cup sugar
1/4 cup margarine, shortening or butter
1 egg
1/2 cup milk (may need more)
2 cups flour (I always use self rising - in fact that's another frugal kitchen hint! You can use self rising flour in just about any recipe but you can't substitute plain flour for self rising, so I just buy self rising and use it for all my baking)
2 teaspoons baking powder (NOT soda)
1/2 teaspoon salt
2 cups blueberries (if using frozen, do not defrost before using)

For the crumb topping ...
1/3 cup flour
1/2 cup sugar
1/2 teaspoon ground cinnamon
1/4 cup margarine, shortening or butter

This is really easy to make.
1. In a large bowl, cream together the 3/4 cup sugar, 1/4 cup fat and the egg (no need to beat first). The mixture will be quite thick.
2. Add to this the 1/2 cup milk and mix well.
3. Then add the 2 cups flour, the 2 teaspoons baking powder and the 1/2 teaspoon salt. The mixture will be quite stiff. If it is too stiff to add the blueberries to, add a little more milk or some water to loosen it a bit.
4. Add the 2 cups blueberries and mix gently until well combined.

Now make the crumb topping.
1. Combine the 1/3 cup flour, the 1/2 cup sugar and the 1/2 teaspoon cinammon.
2. Cut in the 1/4 cup fat until the mixture resembles large breadcrumbs.
3. Place the buckle mixture in a large greased dish (as pictured above, once again a Christmas present this last Christmas just gone from my sweet precious Papa Bear, another red earthenware dish. Can you tell a colour theme in our home?), sprinkle the crumb topping over, and then bake in a moderate oven. The recipe states that this should take between 45 - 50 minutes, but even in our fan assisted oven it took 55 minutes.
And it was well worth the wait ... becuase just yesterday, that whole big dish of buckle was all ... GONE!
Oh my goodness me!
But we did have some VERY happy and contented bears smiling at their empty plates! (even though Papa Bear's football team lost 1-0! Oh dear!).
Late on in the evening, I also made everyone some banoffee pie ice cream, in my new toy, my ice cream maker! It was ... oh so good! I will share the recipe for that another day though.
Love, Mama Bear xxxxxxx

Serving Him Joyfully

Oh my goodness! There are poor sick people all around me today! Poor Little Bear is sick with a cold and fever, Papa Bear is still recovering from his cold and bad asthma, and now my own poor mams, Grandmama Bear, is sick too with gastroenteritis. Well, as soon as I had made sure that the bears at home were comfortable and had everything they needed, I rushed off to the supermarket to fetch supplies of Lucozade, yogurt, rehydration sachets and Loperamide, to take to Grandmama Bear and make her feel a bit better. Oh and a copy of her favourite newspaper! That did make her smile! I stayed with her for quite a while, changed all her bedding, fed her garden birds, kept watch whilse she had a bath and freshened up, and helped her catch up with a few things. She was so grateful to me! But I would have done all those things anyways, even if she had not been grateful. She is my mam!

It is easy sometimes to forget, in focussing on my own immediate family, that I am also a daughter, as well as a wife and mother. And I have a role, as a grown up daughter, in serving my mother (especially now that she is a widow) and taking care of her, as well as in ministering to Papa Bear and the cubs. No nursing homes or hospital beds for Grandmama Bear! She likes to live independently, but whenever she needs help she knows she can call on me. I love taking care of the people who need me! Grandmama Bear calls me her "wee Florence Nightingale"! I am so grateful that Papa Bear supports me in this, and encourages me to take care of my mams, just as I do him. I thanked God as I walked to my mam's house, for Papa Bear and his support, and for many other things besides! For the lovely crisp sunshiney frosty days we have had just recently that made my journey so pleasant. For the beautiful birdsong that I could hear all around, that we don't get to enjoy so much at home, living high up in an apartment block. That I myself am in good health just now, and able therefore to take care of all my family and their needs. And that I have enough money in my purse to do so! Oh and now I think of it, God, thank you for the car too! Because it does so often go wrong and just presently it is running like clockwork, and got me safely to the supermarket and back twice in 2 days! Thank you dear Father God for so many blessings.

As joyful wife to my wonderful precious Papa Bear, I know I have a great many things to praise God for. I know He sent me to Papa Bear for a special reason, because He knew that I alone would be the perfect wife for him. Papa Bear needed a wife who could be his very own "Florence Nightingale" in so many ways, and I dearly hope that he has found her in me. I thank God daily for sending me into the arms of my wonderful husband, so that I can serve him joyfully and make his life as good as it possibly can be. When we married, I was proud to vow that I would "love, cherish and obey " him "all the days of my life". That little word, "obey", is not popular in marriage services today. Many couples choose to omit it, or prefer to use alternative vows altogether, that make no distinction between the vows that the groom and bride take. The subject of obedience - of submission - is a contentious one, and many people dislike the implications that it seems to have, of an unbalanced partnership, where the wife must submit unquestioningly to her husband, regardless of his demands. But is that really what it means?

Papa Bear and I are lucky. We were raised in a culture where the roles of men and women are very traditional, and it has been easy for us to embrace this in our marriage. As in Bible times, in our culture a wife is still considered to be the property of her husband. Now I know that this may raise a few eyebrows. But consider what it actually means. Think of a man who has always wanted to own a beautiful sports car. He has dreamed of it, studied it, yearned for it, for many years, all the time, working and saving hard to be able to purchase it and achieve his heartfelt goal of owning it. And when that wonderful day comes, when the car is finally actually his - yes, really his - imagine his joy. Imagine his pride, and his enthusiasm, his careful cherishing of this treasured and coveted possession. He spends all his spare time maintaining it, keeping it in beautiful condition, enjoying it, tending to it so that it will last him a lifetime. After all, it has cost him all his savings. And he wanted it for a very long time! He is so overjoyed and proud to be the owner of such a desirable possession.
So it was, when Papa Bear married me!

In the culture that Papa Bear and I belong to, nowadays when a husband-to-be is courting his wife-to-be, he does not offer her family money, as would have happened in the past, as the "bride price" for their daughter. Instead there may be the offer of accommodation, or partnership in a business, or practical help from the husband-to-be's family members, when children start to arrive, or other help is needed such as in times of illness. There may be help in establishing the home with furnishings or with a plot of land. Whatever it is, the intention is the same. It is the husband-to-be's way of demonstrating to his betrothed's family, how much he values her and intends to cherish her and treat her as his most treasured possession. For ever.

I am SO happy to be Papa Bear's most prized belonging! I love that he takes so much pride in me. I love that he has so much interest in me. I love that he considers my needs, before his own. Most of all, I love that he TELLS me how much he loves, me, every single day, and shows me, in so many different ways. Every day holds romantic moments for us. And we are not newlyweds!

Of course, being Papa Bear's precious wife, means that I must fulfill my part of the bargain too! And that means taking seriously to heart, every word of God's command to me ...

"Wives, submit yourselves unto your own husbands, as unto the Lord. For the husband is the head of the wife, even as Christ is the head of the church, and he is the saviour of the body. Therefore as the Church is subject unto Christ, so let the wives be to their own husbands IN EVERY THING." (Ephesians, 5, 22 - 24).
Papa Bear cherishes me, and I submit to him. In every thing.

You don't need to look too far into your Bible, to find out God's plan for men and women. Just about 2 chapters into Genesis, in fact. Verse 18 - "And the Lord God said, it is not good that the man should be alone; I will make him an help meet for him".

I am so happy to be Papa Bear's help meet! Happy enough, that I want to spend a lot of time pondering this aspect of our marriage, and try to grow, both as a wife, and as a Christian, so that I can be assured that I am serving him and our Father God, to the best of my ability.

There are many books available on the subject, and I can personally recommend the following ...
Created To Be His Help Meet - by Debi Pearl.
The Power Of A Praying Wife - by Stormie Omartian.
A Wife After God's Own Heart - by Elizabeth George.
What Makes A Man Feel Loved - by Robert Barnes.
The Way Home - by Mary Pride.
The Gentle Ways Of The Beautiful Woman - by Anne Ortlund.
And of course, probably the most famous of all, Fascinating Womanhood - by Helen Andelin.

Believe it or not, I read ALL of these, in the last year! You may purchase all of them, new or secondhand, from Amazon (both dot com, and dot co dot uk).
All of these books examine the role of a Godly wife from a slightly different viewpoint, but they are all scripture based, and well researched. I have read and enjoyed all of them, and am currently reading another book by Elizabeth George which draws from her other books, called "A Woman's High Calling". I have a great many of her books! But there is yet one more book on this very important subject, that I want to draw everyone's attention to, and that is by Martha Pearce, and is entitled "The Excellent Wife".

I really want to delve into this book, and focus particularly on her chapters on Biblical Submission, in which she examines what she has identified as five "Biblical Principles Concerning The Wife's Submission". I will list these for you ...

1. A wife is to be submissive to her husband IN ALL THINGS unless her husband asks her to sin.
2. A submissive wife is not afraid to do "the right thing".
3. A wife is to be submissive even if her husband is not a Christian.
4. A submissive wife does not dishonour the word of God.
5. A wise wife will seek training and counsel on submission from a Godly older woman.

What food for thought! The book is written with a slightly more academic slant than I am use to, so it will take a great deal of studying, but I know that this will be a treasury of wisdom! I am hoping to start reading it at the end of the week.
Would you care to join me, as I study this carefully written analysis of the role of a Godly wife? I will be writing regular posts on what I have learned, and hope that in sharing what I have come to understand, maybe, just maybe, it will be of use to other wives too! It can be very isolating, particularly if you are the only Christian woman in a community of non-Christians, or of women who do not share your values, to have to strive to fulfill what you know is your God given duty, when you have no way of sharing your journey with anyone else. That is why blogging is so tempting, and why I intend to use my blog, to share my own studies and experiences, that they may bless others like me.

Talking of blogging, I really must bid everyone farewell now ... the beans on my stove that I am cooking for our tortilla bake are nearly done, and Papa Bear must have an early tea tonight so that he can eat it whilse he watches his football team on TV! Now that's another post topic for me to think about ...
Love, Mama Bear xxxx

Frugal Friday

This week for Frugal Friday we are in the kitchen.

Just about everyone has short cuts and ways of saving things that they probably do even without thinking, in the kitchen. Things like using the left overs from a roast chicken to make a soup, or cooking double and freezing half, to make a quick meal from the freezer later on.

One of my Frugal Friday suggestions this week however, isn't really a way of doing things differently at all. Instead, it is a fact that I've discovered!
I have found, that making your own laundry powder, is NOT cheaper, than buying it. In England at least, to buy the components of home made laundry powder (borax, soda crystals and soap, with lavender or other essential oil as an optional extra to make it smell pretty) is no cheaper, than buying the cheapest ready made washing powder. From one box of borax I can only get about 2 weeks' worth of laundry. For about the same price, I can buy a box of the cheapest washing powder, which will last me almost a month. So it isn't cheaper to make home made, not where we live anyways.
However there ARE some things that are cheaper!

Here is a list ...
Ice cream. My sweet Papa Bear gave me an ice cream maker for Christmas. It is not the type that will freeze as it churns, but one where you put the bowl in the freezer for 24 hours first. After factoring in the cost of the machine (which was way less than a machine that does the freezing also), even with the cost of the ingredients, home made ice cream is cheaper (and nicer) than bought. And has less additives.

Soup - OK you won't get as many different choices, as if you were to buy the same money's worth of canned soup, as you will if you buy the raw ingredients to make your own. But you will have many more meals' worth and it will be much healthier.
Bread - cheaper, even with the cost of baking it in a bread machine, if you eat more than 2 loaves a week. Also healthier of course, and if you make it by hand, it only takes about 30 minutes to bake in an oven, and you can bake more than 1 loaf at a time.

Cleaning products - I don't make my own although I think that white vinegar probably is cheaper than using a cheap cleaner, because you have to use so much more of the cleaner. But I prefer to use ready made cleaning products because I feel, especially with our birds and other animals, that they are more effective. I use the cheapest bleach (27p from Morrisons) and a green Dettox spray which is apple scented, which REALLY gets the taps and sink shiny! And smells beautiful too. On the floors however, I just use very hot water, with washing up liquid and a drop of bleach, so a saving there. I sweep my floors twice a day (more about that another time).

Cleaning cloths - it is much cheaper to wash them over again, rather than buy those packets of disposable ones. I wash my cloths separately from everything else on a very hot wash, and have different cloths for different things. But that's a cultural thing. Other people might prefer to use those disposable ones. I think the cost of the washing is probably less than the cost of the disposable cloths.

OK I think that's it for now!
Love, Mama Bear xxxxxx